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        With a new year here, now’s the time for me to start having some
positive thinking. I have really suffered through alot with his
cheating and I believe it’s time for me to try and look ahead to try
and see my future positively. Everyone wants someone to love them, care
for them, someone to laugh with, someone that truly wants to be with
them.
         
       It’s hard when you have to go through infidelity. When your
partner is unfaithful, it makes you think twice, not only about your relationship or partnership, but it makes you wonder about yourself. Life
is so hard sometimes but I honestly think that looking for answers and
really trying to work your way past your partner’s infidelity can
really be a good thing.

       Men… Why Do You Feel The Need To Cheat, When It Causes So Much Pain?

      Either Pick up your heart and
take this in stride, or kick that man to the side.
After all it was him, who betrayed and wronged you!
How would he feel if the shoe was on the otherside?

it seems as though the road is rough,
but if i dont take it my heart will stay corrupt,
it seems as though enough isnt enough,
it seems as though like a cd it gets buffed,polished,the stains go away,
as if there were no past scratches of it displayed,
but the truth is just because it seems as though the past scratches weren’t there,

it doesnt mean inside of my heart i’m not wounded,hurt,and scared,
just like most people you judge a book by its cover,
why dont you try judging if its a hater or a lover,
you cant go based on the cover,
you have to discover,
is the heart metal or flexible rubber,
so will you take the time,
and see what lies behind those doors,
and see the real me,starting from the core.

I’m taking a journey down life’s pathway into a world unknown to me.
Unsure of the directions I must take but one thing I know for sure; I’m
to walk by faith and not by sight as the world is known to do. I
decided to walk down this life’s pathway when I answered the Father’s
call from above.

Everything going so smooth, I asked my Father to draw me close and make
me more like His Son. Then all of a sudden my world turned upside down:
test and trails that came my way and I didn’t understand why? There is
no way possible to walk this life’s pathway that I have chosen for Him.

With His words so gentle and softly spoken, now encourages me to stand
tall. Through test and trails still come my way I know that I’m not
alone and my strength is renewed each and every day. So no matter what
may come my way, I will draw close to my Father and become more like
His Son. Then when my journey down this life’s pathway finally comes to
an end; I know without a doubt, I will stand with Them through out all
eternity.

      RECENTLY I  was very down by what have happen in my life. still, life mst go on. i learn not to trust ppl easily nowadays.
     Especially the one tht betrayl my trust and love. i learn to be more tough and put my trust in the Lord.

         i do believe tht, no matter what we cross in our life, there is the purpose for it.
i may be fall to the temptation, but i wil not fall again to the same temptation!            

        Never !!! tht is the promise i give to myself and to all who realy care for me.
     i had learn a lot through out my life in the past 22 years. There is laughter, sadness, joy, grief, sorrow, and all kind of feeling that is hard for me to describe.

      But all of this is the part of my journey, i came to understand tht ppl do change for better or worse. ( or sometimes ppl don want to change, bcoz they afraid to change, and to step out from their comfort zone)  but i choose to change for better.

         Sometimes , when think back of the thing tht i have done in the past, the tear juz drop without any warning.  Nobody can understand fully what have  we been go through or what we have experience.

        But still, God always there to comfort us . To get through of one’s difficulty, one must ussually go through it!
  Thats true, is it?